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Dear Abbey

I have a very good friend that is so confused, hurt and very disappointed in herself....So I said...hey my friend why dont you sit at my desk
and just type how you feel. Not that it will make anything better but at least you may get some feed back from people you dont know...

Here is what she wrote...

Dear Abbey,

I cant believe I let myself fall in love...ha...again. I have been corresponding with a man I meet over the internet.
I met him off of a sight where people write stories, not like Im writing here, but this is where I met this man.

I have never ever met anyone of the internet except 1 person that I did meet in person 14 years ago. This man was in the same city I was in.
I happened to also be married at the time to a man who cheated on me several times.
The man I was married to was a bit surprised and a bit pissed. Why was he pissed, he was pissed
because maybe 3 times a week I would make some lame excuse to see this man. I was not suppose
to be doing anything except what he wanted me to do. I stayed at home 24/7 with my now then 14 year old child.
He would tell me when I was fixing to leave that I could do what I fucking wanted to do
but I better have my ass home by 10 o'clock at night. My son would ask him where I was going
and he said hell who knows. My Son was very confused by this because always always always worried if I
was going to leave him...and with his dad. I had some of the best sex I had ever had, Ha....it was also
the only sex I had. I continued this affair for about 2 years...good sex...but fast sex...I couldnt leave
before he got home from work, and depending what he was doing and trust me he did alot, I would maybe get to this
persons home about 8:30...had to leave by 9:30, Katy bar the door if I wasnt. My little son who was the
apple of my eye would always ask..."Mom, where have you been. One night I was driving over to this mans
house, It was pouring rain, rain like we had never I had before. I was watching the cars in front of me starting
to stop...as I slowed my car knowing I wasnt going to hit the pick-up in front of that stopped. On the Interstate..
which is a joke of a Interstate I was in the left hand side of the interstate...the one next to the cement pillar
that divided North bound from South bound. I also noticed along side of me was another car, so here I was stuck next to the
cement wall, knowing I could not move into the right hand lane, I was at a stop. I drove a Nissan Max. I happened
to look in my rear view mirror I saw an 18 wheeler going at least 75 miles an hour. You know, it was so funny
normally one would be freaking out, I glanced at the people next to me that were freaking out for me.
I knew I was fixing to die...I didnt have time to freak out. I did say aloud...God, I just hope that
the people I know, knew I really loved them. My little Maxium was pushed up the ass of the pick up truck
in front of me and I felt and heard the steal of the 18 wheeler coming right up to the front seat of my car....
The top of my car was being taken off as i was being pushed up the pick up, who hit the person in front of him,
who tapped the next 4 cars into each other. Everything I had in the back seat was now in the front. I felt something
knock my head off...that was the air bag, I didnt go anywhere thanks to the seat belt. The next thing I remember
was just feeling a peace over me liker i had never felt...it was one very bright light, and it was
all ok...nothing mattered I was going to be with God, and let me tell everyone that says there is know God,
There is a God. I floated up up up into the bright lights and the peace I felt....Everything
was ok I was going to the other side. Then the next thing I know I see the 18 wheeler driver and hi friend
run up to the pickup to see if they were ok...and go from the pickup truck up, never looking twice as i sat there
My car decapitated, smoke everywhere, Finally I heard a man say that cars on fire.
The son of a bitchs just looked at me. Finally a man came and I said could you please get me out of here. I cant get
out either door...Not that I had tried because my doors where gone. The smoke was from my air bag. I never
knew they did that, plus being the short person I am I was kissing my windshield.
I just wanted out of my car. By that time the whole interstate was closed off...EMS , fire where there.
Ems helped be out of the car ..I thought I have my arms, I have both my legs, but blood was coming out of
my nose. I refused to go to the hospital, I said No i want to go home, could you please hand be a kleenex
which he he gave me,,,,The nose bleed was from the airbag. I thought to myself...I dont undertstand
nor did anyone else there...I should had been dead. My car was just a well totalled like it was nothing.
I had seen God...well I had felt God and it was so peaceful. Damn you know what...they didnt lie when they
said seatbelts save lives, as does the air bag,,,,but air bags hurt like MF when you sit so close up.
I walked out of that wreck in a daze, I saw a policeman I knew, he happened to live on the same street
as my parents. He said...we will just use my friends name that told me to write it all out. He said, Cindy
is that you, i feel into the youngmans arms...he was still a rookie and he said are you ok.
I said Terrel I just want to go home, he took me to his car and told his sargent...I know her, we are
neighbors Im taking her home. I cried and cried and couldnt stop crying while he took his hand and put it on my lap
ant took me home. Not once did he let go of me. I said sobbing...Terrell I dont understand..
I should had been dead... Why did God throw me back. As he walked me into my parents home the first person
I saw was my son...He ran to me and said Mom.....I then saw my Mother who was by this time putting her
arms around me and telling me it was ok. I saw my Father and my husband, and the fear they hAd when Terrell
had called them and told them what had happened.
I think I cried myself to sleep that night...I cried all the next day,,,and many many many times after that.
I didnt understand...why had God let me live. Why?
He let me live because I had a son who needed me, and I had a Mother and a Father who loved me,
and well my husband played the good part by saying Im glad your ok Babe.

What everyone knew but him was I was not ok...but that leads into something else.


This is not even what I was writting you Dear Abby...what I was saying was I did have a 2year affair maybe 2 nights a week
for an hour and a half...But that was so long ago.. After that wreck I never saw him again.
Why...one reason is I wouldnt fucking drive anywhere...much less way across town. It took me a month to drive my car to the
store...I cried everytime I had to drive..because I always knew I was going to get hit again.
My Son told me...Mom you need to just chill out, it took me a good year before I would drive over 10 miles.I would screem
everytime I had cars on either side of me...They were going to hit me...



well I'll stop here....for now. The main reason I told all that was to say I only cheated on my
husband once...for 2 years. Might as well, I wasnt getting it nor did I want it from him.

Dear Abbey....if anyone wants me to continue what I now hate myself so much for just say so...

and I will continue. If you find this boring I can understand that to. But I have so many questions
as to what my later years has thrown at me...I could stand someone to listen and the really honestly
tell me what they think.

Ok Im going to bed...and i thank Txsweet for letting me borrow this forum to at least get it all out.

also please excuse the typos her spell ck doesnt work

should she stop there...or does it matter?

this makes emotional reading tx

all I would advice
is if your friend has fallen in love with this man

tell him

end of
x

My friend said to tell you all,,,,Thank-you....for everyword you wrote her....

Ms. K....this is just the beginning...
when in fact...she did happen to tell him that

Oh my God...the price one pays for being honest.

M,y friend said to tell ya'll she has to go to bed

at 7:30 am she has to be at the vet...her cat needs his anal glands sqeezed...

What a GREAT way to start her day



To be continued,,,,,,,,,,